cinematographic intercourse

photo by Marija Kavaliauskaite

in our garden

the coming months i will try to live as much as i can in our 'datsja' (Ons Buiten)

Amsterdam queensday 2010

endless party

The Wind Inside

at the shoot of a film that was not recorded

the Making of No Movie

received back my film from the screening at the New York Flicker Film Festival. take a look:

The texts in the film are hard to read. They are about that the film consits of foto's of the shoot made by Marija Kavaliauskaite, who acted as the woman in the film. We planned to shoot "The wind Inside', a super 8 film about a woman that appears as wind inside the mill, while the miller is waiting for the wind to blow outside.

Just before the shooting the current caretaker of the mill, Anna, told me - to my great surprise - a story of the deceased wife of a miller in the 19th century, who burned to death in the mill when it was hit by lightning.

As we start shooting all kind of technical problems arose and finally it appeared that even no film was recorded in the camera that day. "It's the woman", Marija said, and presented, later on the way back home, the more than 700 photo's she took that day of the shooting.

I recorded a stopmotion like film of the photo's, together with this story and presented that at the festival in NYC.

time slip 1970-2010

fear of not knowing

I am scared most of what I don't know...yet I do know that I don't know basically anything...to be at peace with this is my challenge....

new years first impressions

I used to work mostly from 'there is something to do about it because it's never good enough'...

To be in connection, with pleasure and energy from the silence within is what's calling me...from these qualities I will work.

2010 new gatherings

2009 was basically a year of opening up, (re)new(ed) personal orientation for me and of focusing on the way I want to develop myself professionally ...... some serious excorsism of demons from the past (they will return...but I will be open to meet them).

a year of digging in the dirt, excavating hidden treasures under it, to discover...love. ja....beautiful, pure love....it's infite and i am very, very grateful to some persons for their support in this process.

so...i feel a bit tired at the start of 2010 but at the same time very focussed, steady, confident and inspired...

beautiful and maybe awful beautiful things will come from my mind and hands....i know this more certain than ever before...

blog???

how did I get here?.....well, since I got here, I suppose to get on with it...

en waarom doe ik dit nou in het Engels?...nou ja..het maakt de wereld wel weer wat kleiner...so let's get on in English